The Appropriate Response to Reality

I HATE YOU

Stupid fucking last year of degree.

four months to do all this shit and i can’t even understand the wiki article on postmodernist literature. the wikipedia article. Son of a bitch.

for Lezbhonest

Wasnt sure you’d received it. so i resent it yooooou <3

for Lezbhonest

oops. i hope it’s okay that i posted that publicly? some how clicked the wrong button ^^;

<3

lezbhonest asked: thanks for being so honest with me. i really appreciate it and it's very helpful. i have talked to her about this before. even tried to break up with her in august but she promised me she'd change things. i'm still waiting. she said she would go see a therapist, which she never does. and she gets angry with me for the smallest things... like not wanting to get out of bed when i'm asleep to go get a glass of water from the kitchen with her.

no worries, love. i know how horrid the uncertainty feels. trust me, once you get to where you can be totally honest with a person, it makes things so much easier. even if you don’t agree, at least you both know what’s going on.
hmm. well, that sounds like she has problems she needs to go to a therapist about. you shouldn’t have to deal with her problems. you can be there for her, and support her, but you’re not a therapist. you’re just someone that loves her.
Me and my boyfriend are both suffering from various mental illnesses. I have depression and agoraphobia and paranoid tendancies and he has depression and some sort of anxiety thing. Both of us have therapists. Both of us are trying medication. Both of us have trouble dealing with one another and our illnesses and life in general. But we’re actively going to therapy and telling eachother that we need to be left alone or that we need a hug - we’re being honest about what we’re thinking, what we need, what we are worrying about.

So i would suggest, however hard it will be for you, that you tell her all of what you’ve told me/the internet. tell her that this is currently not working, and you need things to be a little different, otherwise you’re not gonna be happy. And if she gets angry at you when you genuinely have not done anything wrong, then you need to a) stay calm - don’t get into a screaming match, there’s no point. it’ll just make things worse, and more confusing. b) point out to her that you are not doing anything wrong and that it is unfair of her to be screaming at you. If she continues, then you need to make a choice. you can either be patient - wait until she’s calm and then talk calmly about what happened and tell her that it’s not fair of her to yell at you. or, you can leave. leaving takes as much courage as being honest does, so don’t be frightened of making that decision if that is what you need in order to be happy. but if you love and want to be with her, you might wanna try being honest first, to see if she loves you back and wants to try to make your relationship work.

But yeah. Therapy *thumbs up*.
Maybe she’s frightened of it? It’s genuinely not a scary thing - i’ve had 3 therapists now and literally.. we just talk about how i am and thinking about why i feel bad or angry or sad or frightened and then they talk you gently through the process of getting more control on your brain. It’s really easy, and totally painless. But it can be scary the first few times.

longhorse asked: also our blog titles match high-five :3

Eiffel Tower :) <3

la-meilleure-amie:

Everyone SAYS they want a fairytale wedding but when I show up and curse their firstborn suddenly I’m a jerk.

XD This made me cackle.

(Source: meilleure--amie, via cartoonmoney)

the beth is the <3

it makes me happy about my body, podgy, wobbly and oddly coloured in places as it is, when i see that friends of mine are so solid in their convictions of female rights and gender rights and equality between all peoples and all everythings. it makes me almost believe i’m beautiful.